Learn to Try and Learn to Grow Up

Finally, I wrote a message on my Dutch friend's wall. I asked him how's his studying and how will Dutch celebrate the Queen's day. I think the answer about celebrating Queen''s day will be drinking a lot. That's how Dutch will do !

But he doesn't reply it. Maybe I asked too many questions so it's hard to reply. It's an end to me. I felt nervous after I sent the message. I told my friends to tell me something and hope they will make me comfortable.

Here's what they taught me : Learn to try and learn to grow up. Don't waste time on things that can't bring you happiness. Be happy and enjoy life. There is always something good waiting for you. You need to realize the reality and think logically.

A good blog writer said every male friend in your life has played a role. They are your teachers. Their mission is to teach you something. No matter it is good, bad, happy or suffering thing. They teach you and leave you from your life. You get the knowledge, retain it. Years later, you will feel grateful to them. They make you realize the world. You will be stronger, mature and tougher. You realize what is love from them.

I Just Don't Know What I Want. I am Pathetic!!

I just don't know what I really want now. I am not ready, either. For what? I want to see a friend again. I don't care about whether he's single or not. I just want to be friend with him.

A friend in my student house who I always felt annoyed in the common kitchen when he always calls me. We had a short conversation on FB. I tole him about my French friend. Since he asked me about her and he had a feeling to her. I gave my suggestion that my friend is busy in week, and he can wait until next party that he can meet the French girl again.

But I can never meet my Dutch friend again. Even I live in the Netherlands. I don't have any reason to meet my friend. Because we not very familiar to each other. It will be awkward.

My annoyed friend(=='') told me that I just don't know what I want. I keep thinking about my Dutch friend, but I don't say hello to him. The longer I don't do anything, I more I get hurt. I don't like the idea that I hurt myself. But it's true and I am so pathetic!

Like what Otikal said, I just don't know what I want. I kept wasting my time thinking about him and don't want to do anything. Maybe I will do something, but not now.

Book list

Saturday morning, my roommate and I just waked up at around 10 am. I think it's a relaxing day. It's really a nice weather today! The weather has been so nice through the whole week. I am like a spoiled child who could enjoy the warm sun light.

I found a blog from a Taiwanese girl who major piano in Paris music school. She release a book, kiss Paris. She has kissed 100 people in Paris and taken pictures. She also wrote little story about these pictures. Reading her blog gives me some energy. She said we all have to be brave and try everything to make our dream come true!

This morning when I was showering, I think about whether to write a message to my Dutch friend on facebook. I really miss him and want to meet him again. But I am still considering whether to do it or not.

Thursday dinner was really nice. We cooked Fried rice. I made a good ricotta cheese cake. Majek took photos of that dinner. I saw them and found that my tanned face looks really odd and ugly. :( It's not good. It's soooo bad!!!

I shouldn't stop writing my blog. The problem is the blog can't show Chinese. So I have to write English on my blog. mm.. I need to find a solution.

I made a book lists which I want to read these books when I go home. They are Chinese books. I can't buy them in the Netherlands. But it's ok. Now, I have to consider whether to write a message to my Dutch friend or not....