Do not Become Such Person

Where is my passion? I've not started organizing my essays on Master application. Oh, my goodness. I will be a loser if I do not start soon. I do not want to become such people in the following argument:

The nonstarter were considered the ones who wanted stability, a strong referee to give them some position in the race, a regulative hand to calm manic speculation; an authority that can call things to a halt, begin things again from compensatorily staggered "starting line".

I read these words from head to bottom and from the bottom to the head. Again and Again, I retrospect to my past. I change my philosophy of life and adapt to become a better, competitive person in the society.