20.12.10

Hot Pot Dinner

It was the first hot pot dinner with friends in winter this year. I saw you again.
You've told me ' I forgot about life in Groningen or just couldn't go back to the old times for good'.
I think you have a strong mind. Because you look to the future not to the past. I always running behind you.

Last night, you said' you missed those days in Groningen. ' Though I've locked the memories inside my mind. I do agree with you to certain extent. But which part do you miss the most?

9.11.10

A Nightmare About Low Score

The exam day is closing. There are at least 20 days left. I already have a nightmare that I will get low score of GMAT. OMG. it's so terrible. I'm really afraid of seeing under 650 score. No!
I want to get high score and attain master school!! I don't want to give up! Never give up!

3.11.10

A Tornado in This Week

The to-do list never empty. There are always exams, homework, presentation and essays on the list. I feel I do not work very efficiently. Do I lack a motivation? Do I think carefully about my future? Yes. I believe the answer is already exist in my mind for a long time. However, what really annoy me is many files and photo I have to prepare and send to the b-school.

The essays need a proofread. I have to ask a close friend to help me to proof read my essays. But who is willing to help me? Should I just try to ask and don't have a second thought? My facebook account has 279 friends on the list. Ironically, it is not so easier to ask someone to give hand than to believe that a friend would be kind enough to help. Does this mean the facebook turn to be a meaningless social network? Since these friends are seemed not real friend to me in reality.

22.10.10

Do not Become Such Person

Where is my passion? I've not started organizing my essays on Master application. Oh, my goodness. I will be a loser if I do not start soon. I do not want to become such people in the following argument:
The nonstarter were considered the ones who wanted stability, a strong referee to give them some position in the race, a regulative hand to calm manic speculation; an authority that can call things to a halt, begin things again from compensatorily staggered "starting line".

I read these words from head to bottom and from the bottom to the head. Again and Again, I retrospect to my past. I change my philosophy of life and adapt to become a better, competitive person in the society.

5.10.10

AT 考不好就不用出國了

今天是忙碌 拚課業的正常週二日子 早上八點課到一點滿堂的課
忙著印好推薦信 請教授簽名 真的很感謝系上教授
然後下午念AT 數學和修辭都很難 我真的好失敗喔! 感覺都沒有進步
晚上七點上閱讀課 老師又超時上課了 我也沒辦法完全使用所教的閱讀方法

想著再過一個半月 就要考AT了 根本就沒有奇蹟會發生之下
覺得 能不能? 好不好? 遇見你 不要這麼難.
同時 我也覺得 AT若考不好 就沒有機會出國了 好傷心啊  
我必須更努力了

26.9.10

Passion and Cold Response

心灰意冷的英文怎麼說呢?
總是給予別人鼓勵
然後提醒自己 寬以待人 嚴以律己
好多英文單字的意思都記不起來 我必須再多加努力
沒時間關心別人了 還是多為自己的未來思考多一點吧

24.9.10

Sad things

What makes me sad and shed tears?

Signing out from the city hall in Groningen. It meant I had to leave Groningen. My second beloved home.
Solving GMAT math problems and answering a wrong answer. It makes me feel like a loser.

14.9.10

Swimming 500meters

I felt like I'm a loser. My GMAT mocked test score is so low. Cotty said I should think positively. Next time, I should be careful and don't lose the score again!

Last time in swimming pool, I only swan 500meters. Yes. I'm so weak. So I'm going to swim tomorrow night instead of going to cram school. I want to lose weight! No. I must to.

5.9.10

想說的話

往事過眼雲煙 暮然回首Groningen 早已人事全非
當年朋友們的友誼 是今非昔比了
要建立新的基礎 才能維持長久

16.8.10

Unfinished Conversation

Sometimes a conversation is unfinished. Words that want to speak out from mouth were swallowed back. The stream of thinking still hanging over in the brain for a long time. But you know what? Just let it be. Do not feel shame of that conversation nor regret. It is all in the past. So let it be.

14.8.10

Depression

What dictionary can give a good definition of 'depression'?
I miss Holland so deep. I got post depression after I came back from the Netherlands.

9.8.10

The Info on FB

I wish I can change the 'current city' to somewhere in the world except 'Taipei, Taiwan'. The sooner the better. It'd so good that I can only stay in this small island for short days and not longer for 2 years. In order to achieve this goal, I'd have to study on GMAT and get high score. The higher the more chances to enter Bus. Master school.

3.8.10

提升意志力

訓練意志力

準備GAMT之前 必須要做好心理準備,把意志力提高.

20.7.10

Tanned or White

走在藥妝店裡 小姐一定會問我需要找美白產品嗎?
自從在荷蘭曬黑後 我的皮膚就是健康的小麥色,其實我非常喜歡這樣的皮膚
在荷蘭 跟曬黑的荷蘭人比起來 我算是比較白的
但是回到台灣 推銷產品的小姐反而覺得我需要美白了.

18.7.10

Taipei - Ik Ben Thuis!

The fourth day since I arrived in Taiwan is a happy eating day. My family had Thai and Chinese food in restaurants. The price is fucking cheap comparing to NL. I've been suffering from the jet lag in these days. My English speaking skill is unimproved. Chinese listining skill is better thank English. It's a distaster. I've talked to my dear Cotty on skype. She's studying her final exams. She has 11 exmas. Wow, that's a lot.I drank a cup of coffee everyday to keep me awake in daytime. I had dinner with my aunt. She always like to preach. I don't give a damn shit to her damn shit life value. I visited my cusions' family in Kaouchung in weekend. My aunt was very happy to see me again. She likes to preach,too.

Why do those seniors in a Chinese family like to preach the youngers and bother their own future career or marriage? I don't give a damn shit to those old stories or life value. They are all cliche.

It's so free in Holland. Because no one bother me about my future planning. Of course, they will ask me. But they merely want to show they are friends of mines. They support my idea and respect to me. Unlike my aunts and grandmother, they don't respect to me. They said anything about bullshit life value whenever they want. They don't want me to share my value with them. Listening is the only thing I'm supposed to react. What the fxxk!! I don't give any damn shit to these life lessons!

Ik ben thuis. I am home. Taipei. I felt nothing but boring. Living in Taipei is boring. Friends are busy working their damn shit jobs or studying. They don't bother if I come home or not. What the fuxx.

16.7.10

When Groningen becomes the past...

Groningen is the past in my life now. I've left the Netherlands in 14th of July. When I was in the air, my tears came out from my eyes. My heart is broken.

Even I arrived in Taiwan, I resistant to change the time of my watch. My heart still in Holland. I like greeting to a stranger on the street. I like to speak English and little be of Dutch to people. I like to meet new friends from diverse backgrounds. I like cycling in Groningen. If you show me anything relating to Holland, I will cry very hard on the spot. Let alone to say that if it is merely a space cake.

Those memories in Holland are erupted gradually by the ugly scene of Taipei. I don't want to lose memories of beautiful and cute houses. I don't want to forget tall and friendly Dutch people. Therefore, I'd write down things I've seen and learned in Holland.

The first lesson is greeting to people. It's a normal and polite expression in Holland. I was shy to say hi in the first place. However, I can say hi more naturally later. When there are non-Chinese speakers around, it's polite to speak the language they can understan, i.e English in this situation.
I found that elders respect young people's decision about their future. Dutch think that everyone is an independent individual. People don't want to bother someone's future.

I don't need to get used to Taipei. I don't feel any change in Taipei. Needless to say, I don't give a damn shit on any spot in Taipei! and shit, I miss Groningen so much!

13.7.10

一頁台北 Au Revoir Taipei  。 複習台北

終於去了北邊小鎮看了海豹 他們看起來很可愛 非常有趣耶! 在Wiunsum這個小鎮吃了午餐和喝杯小午茶,與Amy Vicky 度過這一天

下午回到宿舍後 再去harmony的圖書館還書,然後去挑紀念品,其實我只買了Wafel, 因為實在不知道要買什麼紀念品回去,發現一張海報在爛籃子的店有便宜一歐,真是不舒服,居然在V&D 買貴了.吼

晚上看一部電影: 一頁台北 Au Revoir Taipei, 我想起來自己必須複習台北的人物及街道景色,我即將要面對新的挑戰和目標, 我覺得很緊張!

我即將要寫下在荷蘭的最後一篇網誌了! (哀傷) 何時才能知道,我能再有機會回到荷蘭或是出國呢? 即時將來開始工作了, 我一定會抓住能出國學習經驗的機會! 這個世界這麼大,我還沒去過的地方 認識的人實在還有太多! 我要積極努力點啊! 不能只停留在這個小小的台灣島啊!
我好喜歡荷蘭的大自然景色和可愛的荷蘭人! Ik hou van Holland!!

11.7.10

再也不能...

離開荷蘭 將會失去的事情...
不可能見到荷蘭先生 聽不到和看不到這麼多荷蘭語 每天騎著腳踏車的日子 講英文與這麼多外國人溝通的日子, 用英文上課 用英文買菜的日子, 在一年中 旅遊這麼多次的日子....
仔細地數算一個個的項目 才知道我即將要失去的東西是這麼多,而且越想就越感傷

我告訴秋秋說 數算這些項目 會讓人很感傷,秋秋說: 那你可以開始列出回台北怎麼樣會快樂的事情.
回台北 我必須列出一些需要達成的目標和徹底執行計畫的決心

鹿特丹很像台北, 也就像台北那樣地有許多高樓大廈 還有許多奇怪的建築物

9.7.10

擺脫不了

荷蘭给了我好多回憶,這些經驗是我從未想到, 在台北,我能容易想到我會怎麼樣或是我會經歷什麼事情
但是在荷蘭 一切的事情都難以預料,不可能想到接下來會發生什麼事又會遇到什麼人 和誰會成為朋友,最後又會留下什麼在我的記憶中

下週三我就要回台北了,我好傷心! 為什麼呢? 因為荷蘭真的好美,生活環境好舒適,荷蘭人也很友善啊
雖然擺脫不了,即便如此 我總是想著:能不能再去瓦村一次呢?

闖關遊戲

昨晚羅文和秋秋一起去買菜 煮晚餐給Howard吃 因為明天Howard就要回上海了, 時光飛逝,放暑假後大家就會回家 回到自己的國家,和大家的距離變的好搖遠,難以想樣呀!

晚飯後 一起看足球賽,西班牙對戰德國, 西班牙實力太強了! 西班牙踢進一球 贏了德國! Alvaro非常開心 拿著西班牙國旗歡呼 我們還跟他和西班牙國旗一起照相呢!
羅文因為喝了酒 不能開車所以借住在我們的宿舍裡,因為如此 那個晚上羅文一直不想睡覺,一直和我們聊天,於是我們也沒睡覺,值到天亮 我們才睡著

下午我前往市中心city hall 辦一些離開葛村的手續! 我拿著一本手冊出門去,秋秋說好像要去參加闖關遊戲呢! 但是心中覺得好感傷啊! 好捨不得葛村. 辦完手續後 我就去逛街, 我買了一張海報,是一張巴黎景色, 5.5 歐元 還也買B票 因為明天要去起司市場和風車村觀光.另外順便看看紀念品,因為要準備送家人和朋友,我決定買義氏香料和甜甜餅回台灣

時光飛逝,我的心中 想著要訂好下依個人生目標 好好充實自己的內涵 增加更多國際化的經驗!